Decisions, decisions

So i have been feeling kinda meh lately. It seems as though its one thing after another and things just are not looking up. Of course the downfall is money. I lost my dad first now im about to lose my damn house. Its annoyng and stressful and the one thing that relieved me from stress was derby. I cant afford to do anything right now. And its pretty much killing me.
The only bright side to all of this is that my derby family has been there throughout everything. I love them n find hard to be away from them for long periods of time. Derby withdrawl isca bitch! Skating is fun bit skating with ur family is the best feeling in the world. So when being forced to make decision of whether to postpone my derby duties is a hard one. With being faced with the possibility of losing my house and being damn near homeless again u would think i would do it in a heart beat....but its a tough decision to make. I am hanging on to my BCR ladies as hard as i can KNOWING i can not afford this right now. Both my mother and myself sold my dads instrument to pay the mortgage and it has been one depressing heartbreaking thing after another but i know he would have done the same knowing the situtation that we are in. He has done so before.
I know how much my dads music and sports meant to him. We are very passoinate about pretty much the same thing. So just like him im struggling with giving up the only thing i have for myself. I dont plan on giving this up. Im not going out without a fight.. i love my team!!!!! I have a great group of girls the other teams would envy. Its unreal the bond that jas been formed n love that i feel for each girl. I can only hope things will get better soon